At the point where my life path merged with Spring Lake Ranch, I was seeking darkness, however unintentionally, and that was what I was bringing into my life. I was a resident at Spring Lake Ranch’s program in Cuttingsville the summer of 2011. I had a terrible history of addiction, as well as significant mental health struggles. My time at the Ranch was restorative and grounding, and helped me be ready to start facing the challenges of life — in some ways, really for the first time.
The old adage reads “Seek and ye shall find.”
At the end of my stay at the Cuttingsville location, I moved to the Ranch’s Rutland Aftercare Program – first to the Royce Street supported living house, then to my own apartment. I learned functionality and how to wade through much of my anxiety in a city environment. After finishing the Rutland Aftercare Program, I found my own next step in downtown Rutland. There is real community to be had there, and the apartment, in what was an old publishing house, was gorgeous and affordable. In short, I moved from being completely cared for to significant independence, successfully. Additionally, I see residents and staff in town, and the bonds remain inclusive.
I lived in so many different places when I was sick, thinking the places themselves were the problem. But I am moving into my own home in VT this fall, and, thanks largely to SLR, I have found a niche for myself here. Not everyone stays in the area, instead reconnecting with life in a previous or new environment, but my wonderful process of unfolding has led me to find a home here. I volunteer in three places, attend recovery groups, have sober get-togethers, and spend time in much-loved nature.
What I came to seek from the core of my being was a healthy life, and with that intention, and a lot of help from the Ranch, that is what has manifested. I still can struggle, and at times things aren’t easy. But, I have made it into the mainstream of functioning, and I finished my experience with the Ranch feeling understood as an adult and a contributing member of my community. I have found wellness, and I have found a home.